| Current mood: |  loved |
| Current music: | cyndi lauper - i drove all night |
aint that funny..
*walks into his house, dusty from being on his motorcycle all day, punching in the security codes behind him, then fumbles for a lightswitch to the foyer**sighs, walking up the stairs slowly, reaching his room, peeling his clothes off except for his boxers**glances over at his laptop on his bed, turning it on**cracks his knuckles and begins to type*
He loves me too. I dont wanna rush but fuck HE LOVES ME TOO!
My god, do you realize how many years Ive DREAMED about this? WANTED this? Felt totally incomplete because I didnt have this?!...Fuck, I loved Dani to DEATH but it STILL didnt compare...it just couldnt...
I dont know why I was shocked when me and her didnt work out. Maybe she could sense it...that no matter what, my heart belonged to him. That no matter how much I wanted her, I wanted him more. Still with her? I truly loved her...Then to find out she really didnt care? That to her it was all just some game? yeah well...
I never thought Id even try my hand at this again. Nobodys been able to get near me before or since. Im too used to people leaving me anyways...
But then theres him....hes so different from anybody...hes been a constant, moreso than even the other guys...while they have all been off doing their own thing, lance hasnt forgotten to call you, he hasnt forgotten to remember you exist...*swallows hard*...
I love him. And I see the lonliness that hovers over his head like a dark cloud...Why? I dont know why. I dont know why someone didnt snatch him up already...But now I have my chance. To show him. To be near him...to finally do what Ive been wanting to do for so many years...
I dont know, for the first time I feel free...
please god dont let this fuck up the group...our friendship...friendships...oh my god. whats my family gonna think!
*swallows hard*...i dont care what they think....
I love him.
*clicks update, shutting his laptop then walks to the bathroom, peeling off his boxers, then steps into the hot shower, leaning his head aginst the wall with a heavy sigh*
(Read comments)
|
