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life is
Life is like the greatest show on earth.
I've always thought my life will never be like those in drama serials, full of dramatic and ironical ups and downs. A very normal life, I thought I would live. Seems like its not the case, especially ever since my dad lost his full-time job like some 4 years ago.
Good news is that he has found one again.
Slightly nervy news is that he has to go to Shenzhen, China to work.
Bad news is that he took the job to pay off credit card debt.
Worst news is that the debt is some sum indeed. Only he knows how much and he refuses to say. Kinda expected of him anyway, being the so called stoic father he wants to be.
Him being away, no big deal. After all when I was much younger, he was sent to Vietnam to oversee the start of a factory his previous company was building. What is rather distressing is the debt part.
The only positive thing of this shitty situation is that my mom still holds a stable, managerial job. So she still manages to feed us all, barely, for all that I can see.
So many emotions running through me now. Being peeved and irritated are the nicer ones. No way I will be depressed or what as that is for weaklings who can't handle curveballs life throws at them. Regret..yeah, plenty of that. Too much indeed. Too late for regrets? Hardly. It's what keeps us human.
The need for ORD now is so much different. I want a job. A real one. Not entirely for myself but hopefully I can earn enough to also help in the living expenses.
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