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Okay I'll start at friday. He [dale<3] was there when i got home from school as always on fridays. so yeah so we just laid in my bed and listened to music and he sang me a really sad/sweet song... well two but i was like crying because i was so happy. and then he picked my head up and was like looking into my eyes all filled wiff tears and such and just said "I think I just fell in love with you for the 900th time." and i blinked real hard and some more tears came out and when i opened my eyes he just said "901". and tounched my nose with his pointer and kissed my forehead. So yeah my rents made us leave cus they went to my dads friends house to play cards. so we went to Alexias for a little bit. but then lets because they were smoking weed and go me for leaving. so we went back to my house and told my mom and dad why we didnt want to be there. so we wacthed garden state. and i cried. we were gunna pull a 24 hour deal but i didnt feel good and all so dale went to sleep in my room and i went to go to bed ont he couch but then since he took stackers he was up until 7am playing monoploy on his phone in the kitchen lmfao. so yeah i woke up and went into my/his room to wake him up but i guess since he was up so late he didnt know that i went in there so i left and went on the comp for a little bit and did some quizzies that are on here. like an entry or two back. so yeah then we watched some movies and chilled out. played some video games and such then i vowed i was going to make a 24 hours. so i took 2 stackers and so did he. we laid in my bed and watched this movie City of God. it was really good. it was all in subtitles and i hate to read but it was really good and i actually followed it. the movie ended at like 7am lol so we laid in my bed and listened to short stories with tragic endings and then the songs that made me cry the day before and slept. my mom wasnt happy that we slept together but my door was open and nothing happened. we just held eachother and watched the snow fall. it was wonderful. but yeah so sunday we chilled out and watched movies. we watched eternal sunshine for the spotless mind. <3 gets better everytime! <3 and then some other movies. Found out that we had no school today so he was gunna stay another day. So we watched some more movies and talked up in my room. about how then started to watch this dumb movie lmfao. which he loves but i couldnt stand it. lmfao. it was cute tho because i was trying to watch but kept falling asleep and everytime i was awoken it was to his laughter of the dumb movie lol. but yeah so i went up to bed so my mom didnt yell about us falling asleep next to eachother again. so monday came and i went downstairs and laid with him and his mom called my house to see where he was cus he didnt tell her that he was staying another night. so yeah that was like noon. and then we went back to sleep until like 3ish and then we watched some more movies and then played monopoly uintil like 9pm lmfao. i lost miserably. that fucker. lmfao . but yeah we cleaned off his car and then he left. :-\ so yeah tomorrow is valentines day.and as eternal sunshine says: Joel: random thoughts for Valentine's day, and yes you shouldnt feel like crap if like you have a significant other but like idk i dont get to be with him. and i kept making jokes that were hurting him about like him not getting me anything but it really doesnt bother me that he didnt BUY me anything becasue i dont need things purchased for me for it to be special. i just would want to be with him. but i cant be. which sucks. majorly. im going to be in love and lonely on valentines day. which sucks. thursday is the two year anniversary of dales dads death. and i cant be with him either. i really want to be with him. but i suppose he should be with his mother and his family. i just hope he knows im there for him, and always will be. Then Saturday is our 2 month. doesnt feel like two months at all. it feels like so much longer and so much shorter at the same time. like we've gotten so close and we mean so much to eachother. but i guess you can look at it like we were like such good of friends first. Eventhough we liked eachother we didnt see eachother so idk it wasnt like a physical attraction. we had feelings for eachother. which is so much more then any phical sexual relationship you can imagine. and i love it. and i love him. Tomorrow after school I'm going with James some places then hes taking me out to dinner then we are gunan chill at his house. Saturday was his 20th birthday. Damn that boys gettin old lol I remember him when he was like 17 lol. Then Wednesday Tom wants to hang out. he wants to take pictures of me cus hes going to college for photography and has a project report thing idk so yeah thats that. then thursday i dont want to do anything because i want to be able to be there for dale if he needs me to be. then friday-sunday will be dale_infested again :-) hahahah Clementine: Joely? Joel: Yeah Tangerine? Clementine: Am I ugly? Joel: Uh-uh. Clementine: When I was a kid, I thought I was. I can't believe I'm crying already. Sometimes I think people don't understand how lonely it is to be a kid, like you don't matter. So, I'm eight, and I have these toys, these dolls. My favorite is this ugly girl doll who I call Clementine, and I keep yelling at her, "You can't be ugly! Be pretty!" It's weird, like if I can transform her, I would magically change, too. Joel: [kisses Clementine] You're pretty. Clementine: Joely, don't ever leave me. Joel: You're pretty... you're pretty... pretty... Clementine: Let me show you something... come on... Joel: I think I heard a crack. Clementine: It's not gonna crack, or break, or... it's so thick!... Show me which constellations you know. Joel: Um... oh... I don't... know any. Clementine: Show me which ones you know! Joel: Okay... okay... oh! There's Osidius. Clementine: Where? Joel: Right there... see? Sort of a swoop and a cross, Osidius the Emphatic. Clementine: You're full of shit, right? Joel: Nope. Osidius, right there, swoop and cross. Clementine: Shut the fuck up! Clementine: Joely? What if you stay this time? Joel: I walked out the door. There's no memory left. Clementine: Come back and make up a goodbye at least, let's pretend we had one... Goodbye, Joel. Joel: ...I love you... Clementine: ...Meet me in Montauk... Joel: Constantly talking isn't necessarily communicating. heres the songs that he sung me: And stay up all night and sleep all day, We were smart kids with too much to see. We were so, so sure that they were missing out, They're the ones missing out, and We were elemental, took down to bear essentials, Who knew we'd get so far? Cause our days were numbered by nights on too many rooftops. They said we'd burn so bright. We burn this city and go. Play it again, oh (?) There's no such thing (no there's never too much). And we were so, so sure, oh we never had a doubt. Now were counting days to getting out. We were elemental, took down to bear essentials. Who knew we'd get so far? Cause our days were numbered by nights on too many rooftops. They said we're wasting our lives, Oh at least we know, that if we die - we lived with passion. They said we'd burn so bright. We burn this city and go. Pack our bags and let's get away - they're catching on to us. [2x] Pack our bags and get away - they're catching on to us. [2x] Cause our days were numbered by nights on too many rooftops. They said we're wasting our lives, Oh at least we know, that if we die - we lived with passion. They said we'd burn so bright. We burn this city, and go. Post a comment in response: |
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