|Current mood:|| mellow|
|Current music:||Collision Course Jay-Z/ Linkin Park|
lot to catch up on
O.K. here i go on what will probably be a long entry. I haven't kept up on my journal like i wanted to so here I am trying to relate a whole month's worth of stuf.
I have had a busy month as in fro work i have been pulling close to 55 hours a week. I am quite used to pulling 45 but adding another 10 hours to that has seemed to drain me lol. I have been getting better at the bartending.... i'm still not flashy which is ok with me. I am friendly and I listen which seems to bring in the tips. On the other hand I still haven't made much progress in the cooking end :( I tried running a cpl of specials and just haven't made it that far. No one will sell them where i work at. It's good food thy try it and love it.... Just don't seem to want to sell it. But anyway I got offered my old job back and was given 3 days to decide whether i wanted it or not. My three days came and went and i told them no. The company wanted to lay me off tthen they got put into a tight spot and wanted me to pull their ass out of the fire. Hmmmm maybe if i hadn't gotten laid off in the first place they would't have had a fire to worry about. Plus i like being able to say "Oh, sorry thats not my job, nor is it in my job description." hehehehe I like letting someone else worry about all the high end bullshit. Just let me do my job and be happy thank you very much.
Haven't really been hanging out with my friends lately, I think it's partially becaus ei'm trying to save money and partially because of my x-dressing. It's funny how even though it's still me when i dress and that "Jennifer" does have alot of the same if not more outgoing personalityquirks, no one really wants to hang out with her. They allways say sure next week we will go out and have fun. Then when the next week comes up i always get this..."Oh, I have to get up early in the morning, or I have a root canal to get through tommorow" hmmmm do you think they are uncomfortable?
I really don't care... it's just be honest with me please. If you want to hang out with me "cricket" then fine just tell me. Don't fuck around and blow me off after i spen 2 hours getting "en femme".
I realised how much it frustrates me to see ppl get scared of what they don't understand. I mean i understand to a degree but ok when you get scared to the point of a hate crime? come on isn't there better ways than that? heres an idea how about you aask questions? If i can answer them i will and if i can't then i will try my damnedest to try to find the answer. OH i got to go for now but i will add more later tonight.