|Current mood:|| anxious|
~*Rich Piatt The 3rd*~
Okay.. so i know this guy that makes me feel like im the only one in the room when he looks at me.. and we could just sit there and stare at eachother for a long time.. and i think i said this before but.. at "The Core" it was soo nice. see cuz this is what happened. I didnt want megan or shane or lindsay to see me.. cuz they make fun of me when i flirt wth> *Rich.. so i sat in between him and Andrew Madrid.. Well the movie is going..and like usually we are talking to one another.. and he was telling me how his hands werent as soft as before and to feel them.. *oh i love just to hold his hand.. God i miss it so much* and then during the movie my hands were cold.. and he had his hands together and i put my hand in between his hands.. he like opened it up and closed it tight.. so that it would get warm.. well my hands warmed up.. VERY QUICKLY.. and then i pulled his hands apart and i held on to his hand.. and again he moved his fingers so mine would fit in.. *side note.. i tell you this cuz to me it is a sign that he wants more than just friends.. youll see what i mean later.. just stay wth> me* well anyways.. so then he started to play wth> my thumb like a thumb war type thing. wells i was wining so i like moved his hand around and said "Hahaha" and then he started to beat me and he did the same thing.. so i thought.. hey since im doing this cuz i like him.. maybe he likes me..so during the middle of the movie i went for his other hand.. and put his hands together wth> mine in the middle.. and it was great.. we did that the whole time.. til time to leave.. and when we got up.. we let go of eachothers hands. Well.. I was thinkin.. finally a guy likes me.. but then a month or so later was his junior/senior dance.. and he asked his sister if he should invite me to it.. and she said "well do you want a serious relationship wth> her" i guess he either said no. or i dont know. and she said well if you dont or dont know. then dont ask her. and ever since i found this out.. he hasnt wanted to hold my hand anymore..and we dont flirt as much or at all anymore.. well.. this sucks mainly cuz i miss the attention from *Richard C Piatt 3rd* i miss holding his hand.. i miss everything we did together.. God we havent even been to a movie together since that night at "The Core".. im anxious to find out from God.. what to do.. Cuz i have no freakin idea.. when i have bad days and i talk to him. i feel better.. but when i talked to him on the phone the last time.. he wanted to know why i MAKE him talk on the phone. and i said fine then since you dont like talking on the phone.. i guess i wont call anymore.. (saying it wth> a broken heart but trying not to sound so dissappointed) and i said well i let you go.. he said "are you sure?" i said "not really" so he was like what is that suppose to mean.. i said i means i cant make you do something you do want to do.. and you dont want to talk on the phone so ill let you go.. and then cuz my mom and my sister wouldnt leave me alone.. "go wth> me to the store" or just wouldnt leave the room.. there was nothing more i could say.. cuz i dont want them hearing me say stuff.. so.. i let him go.. GREAT! so i am NOT going to call him anymore.. as hard as it is on me.. i cant i promised.. And tomorrow is my birthday..and i was hoping that he calls me a wishes me a happy birthday but chances of that crap.. SLIM TO NONE.. so i sit again.. lonely and wth> a broken heart.. GREAT!! when will i get to be as happy as most.. no.. i got to be all alone.. God why?.. why most I be lonely all the time?