back to stage 1
fuck! fuck! fuck! FUCK!!! FUCK!!!!!
i dont know what to do. i feel like i want to talkt o him and have him as a friend rather than nothing at all but it seems like it hurts me so much! i feel like i want to puke and crawl back into bed and die. jump off a bridge and not be breathing or moving after hitting the ground. Fuck i am so dizzy and light headed. i want to cry. he is talking to me right now. i hurts so much.
i just want to run away but yet i dont know how to cut the noose off. omg.