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1. Its not my family 2. I feel weird/uncomfortable around them. 3. I missed [living] Zak Shortly after I moved out the landlord decided he could get more money if he rented the house out to a family instead of renting out the single rooms so he gave everyone a 30 day notice to get out. Well its hard to find a place for $200-$250/mo. in 30 days. So Zaks parents agreed to let him live here (their house) for a month or so. We're just not in the same room (not married). I feel bad - hes not even in a room at all. Hes in the basement/playroom area... it can get really noisy, which makes it hard to sleep the hours he sleeps, and thers not a lot of privacy either. I havent been able to sleep lately. Its proably mostly cause im preg and its hard to get comfortable... but i think its also cause its hard to sleep alone; now its even harder knowing that hes just down the hall. *sigh* The other night was nice tho. I watched Meet Joe Black. I never really had a desire to watch it cause i was told it was a mafia, shoot them up, boring movie - Boy were they wrong. It was a good movie. I actually ended up really liking it. I really liked some of the answers people gave Death when he asked about love and what it was. They were like the perfect descriptions ive been looking for. I went to bed at about 4am (long movie). I was having a nice dream... something about Zak, but i cant remember what, I just remember it was a nice dream. But there was a part i wasnt sure if it was a dream or real. ~ I was laying down, late at night in my bed. I didnt hear the door open, but i felt Zak climb into bed and snuggle up with me. He gave me a few kisses and said g'night, I dont remember if i said anything or did anything but he cuddled a little more and left. ~ I was able to sleep really well after that till i had to get up for work. Then throughout the whole morning i just felt really nice, like comforted or something and all i could think about was what happened or what i had dreampt. When Zak woke up and came in to say goodbye i asked if he came in my room last night and he said yeah - to say goodnight. It just made me really happy. I want to say touched... that he would do something like that. I dunno why he came in, maybe he just wanted to say g'night, and didnt think much of it... but it meant a lot to me. Post a comment in response: |
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