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My dad threw away my signature school application. That really upsets me. I wrote it in pen, and he said it had to be typed. Yeah fucking right. I'm not going to fill out my name and cell phone number on a fucking keyboard when I can do it fine with pen. He says it looks unprofessional, and calling to ask for a whole new package would look so irresponsible. What a dick, he really pisses me off, and when I tried telling him it didn't matter anyway, that they only really look at them if they have too many people wanting to join, he wouldn't listen to me, and told me to get upstairs and stay there. He's so selfish, he never listens to me, especially if he knows I could be right, what an asshole. And what kills me is that my temper is a lot like his, and I don't want to be such a fucking prick to my family whenever I get older.
I always throw up when I'm on duster, gross huh? It really fucks me up, I'm not doing it again.. Infact, I don't even think I really want to do anything anymore, if I did, it'd just be marijuana, and I'm not even sure at that.I've already gotten high so much that I'm barely getting any of the same impact as I used to, infact, it's just the regular feeling, but with lazy eye. It's just not as much fun as it used to be.
It kind of bothers me that Lindsey and Jordan like each other, it's small, it's just weird because I used to like him so much, and we saw each other for a while, it's just weird seeing my friends like him the same way I did. Supposbly she used to talk about me whenever I was with him, because he's all I ever talked about...but it was one of the guys I've liked, and I liked him more than any guy I had ever liked. And now, I see notes she writes to herself saying nothing but "Lindsey Jordan" all over them. Hypocrite. What is it with that kid that makes people like him? Hrm..he's not that good looking, or charming for that matter. It was his intellgence that got me. Well, I need to stop this shit, I'm just a little jealous.