| Current mood: |  pessimistic |
| Current music: | Fiona Apple-"Sullen Girl" |
an update
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Let me get this off of my chest.
I was trying to rationalize in my head weather posting my thoughts about Steve would be okay. So far, I believe that you all will probably accept what I am going to say. I heard the news from Jo the day all the rest of us heard. Needless to say, I didnt want to speak to anyone, and I had to as usual. I spent the next hour remaining stoic and normal(I think), until I went to bed. I could not sleep, and I needed to talk to someone. I refrained from calling Jo, because I knew she felt just as bad as I did, so I called Freddy and made him my little listening bitch for about an hour. I am greatful he was there to listen to me, and I was able to work out what I was so confused over.
The bottom line is that to me, Steve was one of the best friends I have had in a long long time. He had done more for me than anyone else has wanted to or tried to. He was real enough for me, and he did enough for me, therefore I consider him my friend, and I shall always hold him in my heart as a real person who was there for me like a real friend should be. I loved him, and that has not changed.
This is just my opinion, and you all know I have my opinions. I hope you will accept this one too.
I love you, my friends.
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As for personal things... they are getting a little too personal. lol, that is kind of vague isnt it? Well, so be it.
Spent the day downtown with folks. Went home early with Freddy so I could hold some conversation with him without being snickered at. Whatever, had an interesting time until my stomach started hurting. so I went home, and then I had to go pick my mother up. Grabbed the Lauren Hill cd and played it in the car, I felt like a ganster with the booming bass and my blue bandana. Sorry, have to laugh at myself there. XD
I am to effing tired, I need to go to bed.
night
-Lilly
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