Kevin (brigham) wrote, @ 2003-04-14 19:23:00

Current mood:

grumpy

I want to hold him... Love him... Comfort him.
I want to tell Derek that everything will be okay. That he can do it. That he can fight.

The cancer is definitely back in his only kidney. We just found that out today. I really don't know what to tell him. I know he is tired. Tired of the fight.

I wish I could just take this all away from him. It is so weird. I never knew him healthy. Every moment we have been together could have been the last one. And then a month ago I started to build dreams for the two of us... And now... nothing.

Tomorrow he is having a surgery in the evening, removing his kidney. Maybe that will stop the spreading of cancer. But it will mean no kidney for him. Dialysis. Special diet. No vacations. No travel. This will be hard on him. On me. On Craig.

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