|Current mood:|| irate|
It is official: I hate my aide. I thought her purpose was to HELP me but all she does is question what I do. I tell the kids to do one thing and she tells them to do something different. I was ready to kill her today. The kids had just finished PM snacks and I told them to throw out their bowls and cups. Right away, she said, "Do you want to sing songs?" and they started screaming and running over to her. I told her that I wanted them to clean up from snack time and she stormed out of the room. When she came back, I told her that I wanted them to clean up before they played and she was like, "I didn't mean for them to sing songs now". I told her that, when you say somthing like that to kids, they don't undertand that you mean later. Of course they would rather sing and dance than clean up. But wait, it gets better...
At the end of the day, the kids have free play until their parents come to get them. I don't believe that children that young (2 and 3) should be taught to throw things. They don't understand the difference between hitting somone with a plush ball and a tonka truck so my policy is no throwing, period. I yelled at the kids all day about throwing things. Well, during free play, Lauren decided to have the kids throw balls to each other. I flipped out. I said, "Lauren, you have been here all day. What have I been telling these kids?" and, once again, the bitch copped a 'tude with me. I was ready to slap her.
So, all of this, coupled with the fact that she takes cigarette breaks incessently (and always when the kids get rowdy and she leaves me to deal with them) and she curses in front of the kids (I am waiting for one of them to curse to their parents). I seriously don't know how much longer I can put up with this. I need to talk to the director about this but she is really close to Lauren and I have a feeling nothing will get done. If Lauren comes in with an attitude tomorrow I am going to flip on her. She is my aide. She is supposed to freaking help me but I think life would be better if she wasn't there.
Tomorrow and Thursday are going to be rough. I have work at school and Boscov's so that's 2 14 hour days in a row. Don't expect to see me online much because I will be coming straight from work and into bed.