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kAt (break_this) wrote,
@ 2008-01-06 01:40:00
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    quitting her
    There's this girl,
    and she loves this girl with all her heart,
    with everything she has,
    basically every fiber of her being.

    But she's not good for her,
    and she knows it.
    She's given up everything else;
    coffee, cigarettes, drugs, music, her guitar, bad habits,
    even things that make her happy,
    all to see if they're the ones that are making her blue.

    But in the end,
    her heart is still breaking,
    and she realizes that it's actually the one thing,
    the one person,
    that she loves more than anything else in the entire world,
    that is breaking her heart.

    But she's not angry and she's not bitter,
    she just knows what she has to do.

    why are the most simplest sounding things
    the most hardest things in life
    to do................

    I gave up coffee and cigarettes
    I hate to say it hasn't helped me yet

    I thought my problems would just dissipate
    and all my pain would be in yesterday

    I poured my booze all down the kitchen drain
    and watched my bad habits get flushed away

    I thought that that would keep my head on straight
    and all my pain would be in yesterday

    But it's true
    I'm still blue
    But I finally know what to do
    I must quit
    I must quit

    I thought that if I didn't go and play
    the sadness would get bored and go away

    I thought that if I didn't go astray
    that all my pain would be in yesterday

    I sold my guitar and my piano
    I thought that it was these that kept me low

    I thought if only I could try and change
    that all my pain would be in yesterday

    I must quit
    I must quit

    It's like im losing her
    all over again

    this cycle
    this continuous need
    to keep each other around

    only to watch
    and slowly die inside
    and suffer

    I broke down today
    not because im hurt
    not because im heart broken
    not because i love her

    but because
    losing her
    is the only way

    and losing her
    Losing her forever

    but that is it

    I've already lost her forever
    and this person
    i've tried so desperately
    to save
    is gone

    what the fuck am i
    without her

    I love her so unbelievably much
    and she is gone

    im so terribly heart broken
    and empty

    i miss her
    and love her so much

    not one single tear
    will ever bring her back to me

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