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kAt (break_this) wrote,
@ 2008-01-03 23:01:00
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    Current mood: cold
    Current music:air - playground love

    one more time
    I don't think I'll find a love
    I want, the love i'm searching for in this machine
    Visions fail and all the circuits blow and
    the message lost in this machine,

    I tried,
    you know I'll try,
    I'll try
    and hard as it may be,
    you know you should be with me
    even though it seems its all a lie
    I still believe you should be with me






    i walked
    into the same trap
    hook line and sinker

    care is the bait used.
    threats of giving up,

    fear of losing her
    completely
    consume my thoughts

    i put her first
    again

    i leave myself
    behind

    i close my eyes

    i break my heart

    to try fix hers....

    she doesnt stop
    she keeps going

    the lines disappear
    the truth disappears
    the honesty disappears
    the friendship disappears
    she disappears

    i hold on

    but i've already lost her

    and that is what streams from my eyes.

    i was so scared of losing her
    that i held on
    to whatever i could

    when i dont
    even know her anymore

    i lost her long before
    i tried to save her

    and now who
    is going to save me

    all i wanted was to help her
    to make her happy


    her fear is happiness
    her fear is never having happiness


    yesterday
    she left to be with her
    without any remorse
    guilt
    shame


    just so she could
    watch the lines go by

    she came back

    i told her to leave
    she left
    and didnt look back

    not only have i lost
    the love of my life
    i've lost my bestfriend
    i've lost all the things
    i loved abt her
    all the reasons
    i had to stay
    everything we ever were
    or could have been


    even as my friend
    she couldn't stand by me
    or be there for me

    i said one more time
    and im gone

    theres only so much
    i will take



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