|Current mood:||heart broken|
|Current music:||elisa - dancing|
my eyes are only on her
what do you say to to the person you think is falling out of love with you?
i feel like im losing everything.
i feel like i don't make her happy.
i don't love her the way she needs me to.
and i'm not what she wants.
i dont think she can even stand to touch me.
she cant stand me
i hold on to her but should i let her go?
i will lose everything.
i trust her but is it really what i should do?
is she falling out of love with me.
are we beginning to destroy things with our pride and resentment.
should i be leaving.
should i stay
so unbelivably and blindly in love.
I can stand to lose it all.
my sight. my trust. my heart. my soul. will be lost
but for her happiness i would do it.
am i worth it?
is this worth it?
I can't bring myself to do it.
but these attacks.
slowly are killing me inside.
i dont know who i've fallen so deeply inlove with.
even though i've lived with this knowledge.
now i don't know if i can.
it's only suppose to be about love
but it really isn't.
i guess i maybe leaving soon.
or will she beat me to it?
i take a step backwards but i find my self back in the same place
its a struggle.
my eyes are only on her.
i only want her.
but what do i do?
she doesn't love me any more does she?
i feel it. i see it. i hear it.
But i can't believe it.
i wont' believe it.
i don't want to let her go.
i can't let her go.
i put my hands over my eyes.
i refuse to see what i already know.
we're falling apart.
slowly. little by little.
but im still here.
im not the same person i was.
im losing it.
she doesnt deserve it.
but now i cant help it.
because im angry
and im hurt.
and its starting to show.
AM I FALLING OUT OF LOVE WITH HER????
i don't know.
i dont know anything anymore.
but im hurting
it hurts very much.
i feel so unwanted and unappreciated by her.
i make her so angry
no matter what i say or do
i think nothing i do is ever right
or is what she wants
im a mistake
i feel like im a mistake to her.
so i watch her while she sleeps
the only time i feel close enough to her
without any anger in her eyes
i kiss her face
touch her skin
and feel the love i once felt
the love i long for
but its only in her subconscience
and i know she never feels my kisses
my eyes are only on her
where did they go?
i miss them
i miss you
i miss her.
i miss what ever we were before
i miss it.
i miss us.
i just long for her
i just want to be with her
be near her
but i will never get past her exterior
i will only ever know her from a distance
always at an arms distance
close enough to touch
but not enough to feel
i will never know her
The girl I love
I will never know the girl i love