|Current mood:|| indescribable|
|Current music:||Nichole Nordeman - Woven and Spun|
i feel so selfish.
So tomorrow after i go to Northpark with Aly, hopefully i will be able to be home by 12:30. This afternoon i was talking about how bad my ay was after school, because thinking about it at the time, it was not too great. i did bad on various assesments and i was told i don't get to see Alex because of Mrs. Loney but i won't go into that. Nevertheless, i climbed into the car with Katie's mom and she starts talking about this kid who i go to school with. i was quite confused because it sounded like a death and i realized i hadn't seen him at school so i thought she was talking about him. Although i don't know him very well, i have spent a little time with him and think he's a nice guy. Well come to find out, his mother passed away. Here i am thinking about getting a stupid B on a stupid law quiz and how bad that it, and then this hits me like a ton of bricks. i told Katie that i wanted to go to the funeral with her tomorrow if time permits. Funerals are so hard for me. All i think about is Mat, Mer, my aunt Amy, my uncle Ray. So i will have a surge of emotion tomorrow, but it will be worth it. Hopefully, it will mean something to the kid that someone who barely knowes him cares. i truly do care because i have been there. Granted my mother has never died, but my 2nd mother, best friend/ultimate confidant/one of the greatest people i have ever known, and a childhood dance partner have all passed away. i just want to be there for him....but please keep him in your prayers.
P.S. On a much more positive note: Happy sweet 16 to Diegolo, and a big birthday wish to my sister on her 20th.