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| Current music: | kina "hurt so bad" |
Lessons of life and Lessons of myself.
Today or should i say tonight was a very good night and in a way not a good night "does that make since?" Jim & Deb Brown are like my unofficial adopted parents and they have been there for me and been a mother and father to me like no one else ha sbeen to me in my entire life except for my grandmothe rwho passed away in 1998. Jim had a long talk with me tonight out in the building behind the house after he taught me how to put a battery back in the car, and i have to say the people who built this car makes it pretty damn hard to do sometimes especially when you never done it before. Well anyways i'm getting off the main subject! Jim, tonight, has been more a father to me than he has ever been to me since we known each other. Jim started to open my eyes about the fucked up world out there and giving me many, many advices and passing down some wisdom. At the same time he was showing me myself and how i'm doing and the things that i need to change b/c it is really starting to effect some people who really care and love me dear to their heart, mostly talking about Deb my "mother". He started to teach me about integraty, honesty, and paying your debts in life. At the same time he was showing me what my level of these things are at, and i have to tell you it really shocked me and opened my eyes so wide that it hurt to keep them open (figure of speech). I mean there are a lot of things that i need to work on and change in my life. He told me that he wasn't trying to knock me down and get on to me, which he wasn't either, he was trying to help me before it gets out of hand. He told me that he has great faith in me and that he knows that i can amount to something beyond of what i know that i can do. He was being a father to me, telling me things and just talking to me more than what my real father has done in his entire life and my 20 years of life. I almost cried at the end and i told him how i felt about the the whole thing and i could see it in his eyes that he loves me as his own son, a son that he never had as well as just being proud that he has the opportunity to be a father to me. I can say one thing my father "Jim" and my mother "Deb" has and is making a difference in my life that they probably have no idea how much, but they more likely do b/c they are not blind,LOL. Well from this night things are really going to change in my life and how they feel about me in a positive way, things that will make a diffrence in my life in the future "distant & near". Thats all for now i guess. talk to ya'll later!
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