| Current mood: |  awake |
| Current music: | Fresh Prince of Bel Air |
i havent updated in a while....why? because one: i dont have a computer/internet and two: nothing really going on.
I have tried calling people. Sara is not home most of the time, Derek is busy with school and doesnt pick up most of the time, i lost (actually the bunny chewed up my phone/address book) Jarretts number, Nathan is out of state and engaged....who else? Oh i finally got a hold of Steph, she is in the process of a divorce (thank God) and actually has an interest in a Smart guy. James is working at Super Target and studying for his ASVAB. So he is earning more money, and studying to do something he wants to do.
James and i have become active into Church again. Well for me again and for him the first time. I havent felt this good for this long of a period ever. I am truly happy. I really believe the Church has helped. I believe that this is true unconditional love. I havent been nicer than i have since i have been to church. i know what God and Jesus Christ love feels like and i hope to show the love i know they have for me to others by the way i act. I know i am not perfect and i know i havent always been a good example of anything. I want to try. I want to do. I want to make a difference in peoples lives. I want to know when i die i have helped at least one person. I want to know that my life meant something to someone because i made a difference. Alright that doesnt sound how i wanted it to. I sound vain and that is not what i want to be.
It is so frustrating when something sounds good in your head but not out of it.
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