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It's only teenage wasteland
Ok, well yeah .. All you guys can go ahead and label me a bad person after this .. I dont care. It was destiny that this happend.
Well, see .. I was supposed to have 60 dollars, I only had 20, so i needed 40. My original plan was to sell some weed to Cunico for 40, and then use the 60. Well, I got to school and asked Cunico if he still wanted to buy some weed, and he said "Nah, it was ok" so I thought .. fuck! .. I'm screwed .. where the fuck am I going to get 40 dollars? So get tired of thinking of ways, and I just think to myself .. "God, why cant I just find 40 dollars lying around somewhere?" ... So I walk into my second period class and go to the back of the room where I sit, and I look and see that theres a wallet lying right next to my seat. I thought "No .. fucking .. way" So I picked it up and looked in it .. and sure enough, 41 dollars was in the wallet. Talk about guilty conscience .. I decided that chances are, whoever lost it was going to come running in the classroom in 5 minutes, and claim it .. so I figured I'd just wait around awhile to see if anyone would claim it .. No one did. So I kept it.
Ryan was waiting for me after second period like always .. and I was a combination of freaked out, exstatic, and dazed, and of course I told Ryan about it because he's my best friend. So when we were on the elevator he says "Dude .. god wants you to have that weed" .. What fucking luck.
Before lunch I was walking with Chris(tine) and I asked her if my hair looked bad. (Its weird how I only care about how it looks when I know I'm going to see Elisha) And she said "Nah, it looks fine." so I said "Ok," and she goes "Why?" .. I said "Because Elisha always stares at me, and its probably because I look like crap or something" .. And sure enough, when I was walking to the table, he was staring right at me .. watching me walk to the table. So I turned to Chris(tine) and said "See what I mean?" and she was like "Haha .. yeah". So when I sat down he was still staring at me, then Ryan came over to the table, and I was asking him if he saw Nick, and he said "No, but Elisha will know" So Ryan asks Elisha some stuff about Nick, and then Jacob sat down and was like "Sup guys? What are you talking about? .. i want to know" or something like that. I turned to him and said "Do you know where Nick is going to be after school?" and Jacob said "No, why?" and before I could say anything Ryan yelled out "Cause he's going to fuck her." .. My reaction was just like "What?! .. uh-uh", and I looked over at Elisha, and he had this far off, distant look on his face, kind of like he was trying to listen to what I was saying .. then when Ryan said that, the look on his face just got .. I dont know how exactly to describe it. He just kind of sunk in or whatever. I'm sensing that maybe that was some jealousy .. I doubt it, but who the fuck knows .. Anyway, then he went back to staring at me. Surprise, Surprise.
The way he goes about this just confuses the hell out of me (like if he likes me .. the way he shows it is really fucking weird). I mean damn, if he feels the same way, he should just fucking tell me, instead of be all nervous and shit like David says .. I mean come on .. the dudes never had a girl friend before, so everyones constantly telling me he likes me, hes probably just too nervous to say anything, that or either he's not sure what to do .. Fuck it, he needs to just take a chance, i did it once, and I'm still living. Plus its not like he would get rejected anyway .. psh .. He is one person I will never understand.
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