A lover you don't have to love (blackheartloner) wrote, @ 2003-10-15 14:21:00

That I'll never let you hold me back
I think I know what I wanted to talk about now.

So things are pretty much settled between me and Toney..

Or, yeah, I think so.

I'm still mixed up a little. Because.. even though so much stress is off now that I'm talking to him and all. Somehow in many ways, I'm still angry. Well, let's rephrase that. I'm not angry, actually I'm frustrated. Because like I said, I had no idea what was going on. So of course, it's going to be a while before I can really get over that, but I'm not going to really hold it against him or anything.

Yeah... that's going to take awhile to soak in.

But, on the bright side, things are fitting back together. Like Taking Back Sunday said, "I stay wreckless-jealous in my mind, for this one simple reason: I picture you as something larger then life." Cause that's kind of how I felt. I was on the verge of just dropping it all and walking away from it. But, I had to keep in mind, this was pracitally my best friend. And you can't just drop and walk away from your best friend now can you?

It's still complicated to understand or explain.

So I'll drop it.

A thousand clever lines read on clever napkins

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