|Current mood:|| irritated|
Worst Nite in awhile
Last nite was just BAD. I found out that almost all my friends hate me cuz I'm mean to Ryan. I really didn't think they would care cuz I think Ryan is fake and 2 nice and I'm mean to him. I've relized now that almost everyone in the fuckin world is fake and not themselves. Am I the only who who doesn't give a fuck what people think about me? I was talking to dan last nite about all this, and I Couldn't help my just cry for an hour while talking to him. He's making me relize somethings about myself that people want me to change. I don't know if I can change the way I am cuz people from my past made me this way, it's gonna take a lot to change...... So I decided since I piss so many people off I was juts gonna stop talking to everyone at lunch, so today I just brought my discman to lunch and didn't say a word, hope that makes everyone else happy, if I could only make myself happy. This morning wasn't much better. I slept through my alarm which is set for 5:30, and I got up at 7:20...so of chorse I was late for school. WHAT A GREAT WEEK!!!!!!! haha ya right...