clover (blackclovers) wrote, @ 2003-11-07 16:06:00

ugly, ugly, boy
don't ask why, but I feel really bad today, I probably look it too. I did get to work today, I'm not even getting paid for it, its fucking ga---- ....wait, I haven't even updated this thing in like 2 months.

ok, I got a job at a local TV place, I help them work on TV's, who would thought..
I don't get paid yet, although I might soon, it depends on my boss. my life is pretty normal now, im still a looser, a geek and I hate people. I still do drugs, I still smoke, I still masturbate (you'll never get me to stop that Mr. cornbread man!!!!!!!!) there's no love in my life(big surprise there) my dad stopped being so damn bitchy lately (it'll start again) and im hungry.

that's about it

so, ya, I worked today, only for like two hours, but hey, at least I am working, I never thought I would, but look at me now.
I haven't found a good song lately, I need a good depressing song. I feel too normal, I need to hurt, I need to feel something, iv just been plain lately, bland, numb, there's nothing.
im out of cigarettes too, im going to be a grumpy grumpy clover for the next few days.


o ya, on the major news, my notebook is under investigation by the school
apparently they didn't like the baby fetus on the inside, holding the 38 special (its a gun) or the pentacle on the back (international sign for the devil!!! bwaaaaaa)
so, ya, I don't have my beloved notebook now, it pisses me off because that thing was the last form of self expression I had, now I have nothing, now no one will see who I am or what I be leave. im just some preppy looking guy at school with a fucked up back pack. if you want to base it on people's perception of me and how they view me, im normal. im clean, im what you'd expect out of a stereotypical high school student, and I hate it. a lot.
fuck fuck fuck
I dun no
im tired
ah
dman it
ok
im gunna go,
love
clovers**

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