| Current mood: |  pissed off |
ok i really fucked up this time.
cone proposed to sara like last week.
i dont know what happened but i think for some i have feelings for sara. am i jelious?
one night we were chillin and watching a really stupid movie on HBO. i dont know y but we started flirting and then like i started making out with her. like it felt like we both wanted it and needed it. mayb she wasn't getting enough with cone but i dont know. she like started grabbing my dick and then i knew that this wasn't right. i asked her wtf is wrong with u and i just left. but whats wrong with me? cones my friend and like they were like getting married. im a fuckin moron.
so i went out just to get away. i drove until i saw a hill so i stopped and climbed it. i layed there for about a hour and thought if i really liked sara or if i was just an asshole who likes to get people pissed at me. how can i even tell cone? i dont want to ruin the band over this. i decided i wont tell him and go and see sara to talk about our incident.
i fell asleep on the hill and woke up the next morning to birds chirping. i found out that sara works as a stripper... did this make me like her?? so i decided to watse the day around the town and meet some fans to get my mind off of this. our band use to be so fucking fun and we acted like fucking losers.. what happened?
i met some people and they showed me how to have a good time. what we did i really dont want to say but when it was after supper i knew that i had to talk to sara.
i went home to change and cone just looked at me so fucking evil i knew that he knew. i acted like i had no clue what he was talking about because i had no fucking clue how he knew. i really want to talk to him but i just said i luv u to and left. off to the club.
i walked in and was greeted by sluts. hey nothin is wrong with that. so ya know i partied for a little while and then i saw sara and asked if we could talk and she said when she gets a chance. she walked out and did her um stripper stuff and then cone walked in. he saw her and me and walked right out of the door with steve. i guess steve knows all about this and i blew it. god life sucks. so when sara was done we went for a walk so we could talk. i asked her if she really liked me or if she just made out with me for some other reason and that im not sure if i liked her and why i kissed her, but then a car pulled up and said she has to go and left. i at least got my question out but she gave me no fucking answer. i knew i couldn't go home and knew that cone and i needed to talk.
i went to an appartment and got a room. its not near cone or steve so i'll be fine. at least until tomorrow.
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