SO.... Long time no update. haha Life has been hectic to say the least. It's also been kinda wierd and upsetting. Last week I had a sinus headache that was so bad it hurt to turn on the lights. I went to a concert at the Emerson in Indy. It was definately not what I expected. Michelle and I went and we met Frank there. I think Frank likes Michelle. It seems that way. I'm pretty sure I've been knocked off my pedstal. I can't say I'm all to happy about that. It would be different if things weren't the way they were now. I've started sleeping with Frank. I really care about him, and want to be his girlfriend. I don't want to be friends with benefits. I think I'm in love with my best friend and it sucks. Michelle is going to go to prom with him. Michelle and I were talking with Frank about prom and wanted to know if he was going. Michelle offereed to go. He kinda him-hawed around about it. I want Frank to be happy and have a good time at prom, but I wish I was the one going. I admit it. I'm really jealous. Part of me hopes that Frank can't take Michelle to prom. Like that because she didn't graduate from our high school, she can't go. I want to slow dance with Frank. I want to kiss him. I want to hold his hand when we walk down the street.I want to love him not care what others think. I'm almost to the point where I don't care what others think. When you find someone you want to be with it's a rare thing. Well, it is at least it is in my case. I don't really like just going out with any Joe Schmo. I'm going to shoot my self. I guess I'm just gonna pour my heart out to him this weekend when he comes to visit. I can't do this to my self. I need to either put things back the way they were or put things in a state that is better than this is currently.