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Wow! You got hot.
I'm disgruntled, well, more so than normal. I have to guy friends named Aaron. One of them lives down the road from me. (Maybe four or five houses.) Well, my brother was hanginoput with with some friends the other night and they dropped him off at the park and he saw the aaron that lives down the road. Aaron brought him home. I was heading out the door b/c I was going to go see if my friend was working and hang out there, or hang out at the court house. I hadn't seen Aaron in a while so I was decided to stay and visit with him. Aaron and Dave went into Dave's room and were sitting on his futon. I was leaning in the door way. We were all talking and suddenly Aaron made some kind of comment about me getting hot. I just thought "what the hell?!?" He kept making comments about stuff. I flipped him off adn he was like "What? I can't complement you?" or something like that. it wasn't like every two seconds that he said something, he amde a couple of comments. He asked how old I was. I told him I was 19 and he was like, "So, you can get into bars?" I was like "Um noooo I'm not 21." Evidently I can if you just go in there to eat and then leave immediately afterward as I was so wonderfully told. Great... Too bad I don't have an incredible urge to spend my time in a bar. Well, unless there'sa band playing there. If there's a band I want to see I'd seriously consider doing bad things to get into that bar.
I dunno. Something just bothers me when I'm told "hey, you got hot." It's wierd to have someone tell me that. I am not considered one the "beautiful people" by any means. I am just an average person. I wear a t shirt and jeans and just let my hair down. DI don't wear make up unless I had too much time and needed something to do, or i just felt like it. I'm not a big fan of make p. I think it's like wearing a mask. If you wear make up to attract someone, what happens when you wake up in the morning after spending the night with a guy and it's been kissed off and smudged? You're no longer as "hot and sexy". You're a wreck and the guy is repulsed. A lot of guys find the the morning after look sexy, but when the night look is smeared allover them and the bed... It's not a turn on. If I'm going out to some place really nice then yeah, I'll probablly wear it. The only place you'd notice the make up would be my eyes. My lipstick isn't some color that looks like it was on some '80's shirt. (aka radioactive glowing red) It also bothers me how people make their skin two shades darker with their foundation. Apply it lightly. Don't use a trowel, please. There are masons out there who need thier tools. Give them back.
Whew! that wasa fun little tangent to get off on. But yeah... Being told "Hey, you got hot." is certainly a ytip when you're a comfy person. It's bizarre. It's really hard for me too because he was basically trying to see if I'd go out with him. I've got more than my fair share of guys right now. The last thing I need right now is another guy. He would be a fun one to hang out with though... I could knock back a shot or two with him. I'd trust him to not do anything if I was inebriated. He'd be safe to drink around since I have like no alcohol tolerance.
I don't drink which is kinda abnormal for most college kids. Even the really studious types do it. They aren't the people that go to house parties that are free for all drunken groping parties, but they know people that live off campus that they can go to and hang out with. I didn't know anyone that lived off campus really that I could go over too that I trusted or wanted to go over too. I'm just nervous for next year. I have friends living off campus that will have small get togethers at their houses. It'd be nice to be able to have a drink or two before I'm not all together or te be able to have a drink at dinner and not be drunk by the end. It bother's me that i'm worried about drinking and I'm not 21. It's just that I know it will inevitably happen next year. I'll just have to wait and see what happens. If I went out to a party I would baby sit the people that I went out with. I made sure they could get back to the dorm okay. They seemed to lose their sense of direction on one occasion. That was disturbing when they couldn't remember which was campus was.
Being hit on at parties is one thing, but being hit on when you're not at one is another. I don't know what to think. My ramblings have not produced an ephiany as I had hoped. Maybe I'll be struck with one later. I'm such a science nerd. I haveto analyze everything... It bothers me sometimes. Oh well.
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