| Current mood: |  relieved |
| Current music: | ICP - Evil Eye |
*sighs with relief*
hey there....so i went to go see him....when i got there, you have to sign in and wait for them to get him into the visiting room....so i sat there and waited for 15 of the longest minutes of my life!! i was so terrified that he wasnt going to want to see me....but then they called me in...when i walked into the vising room, he saw me, and his whole face just lights up.....i walked up to him, and he gave me the biggest hug....and told me we got table 29....we go and sit down and asked me why i was there that day, that he thought that i was supposed to be comming on sunday....i told him that my roommate said she'd bring me today...but she has to work on sunday...which i dont, but i did today...anyway, we talked...about everything with the whole cheating thing, he's so understanding...he just told me that he was really mad when he first found out, that he wrote me a letter, telling me that he wasnt sure that he even wanted to see me ever again, but that he was just venting, and that he ripped it up and threw it away...well that made me cry....he just smiled at me and said that it wasnt anything to cry about....we talked a little about job corps, he wants to go when he gets out...and since by the time that he does get out, and since i dont have a direction in life yet....and i've been gone from there for a year, i was thinking of maybe comming back and doing some more trades....but i'm not sure...i did ask him if they would tell him about a month or so ahead of time when he was going to get out, and he goes "yeah, why?" so i told him to tell me when he got told, because i was going to save up some money and when he got out, i was taking 3-4 days off of work and school, and we are going to get a hotel/motel....and not come out of the room for like the whole time....*grin* he just looked at me and smiled.....i actually told him i loved him today, he is the only person that i've ever had trouble saying that to, i've written it to him so many times, but when i go to say it, i just cant do it....steph said something about maybe it was because i cared so much about him, that i just couldnt do it....i dunno. anyway, i think i'm going to try and go see him on sunday too, if my brother will take me up there to do it.....well i'm gonna get going, i'm tired
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