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Pray for Peace
The water of the Adriatic Sea is so blue. It's like a baby blue or blue sky even lighter than turquoise.
"Welcome to Sarajevo" I am watching the saddest movie in the world. It is perfect for Easter or Holy Saturday for me because I entered a new level of spirituality and soulfulness after I went to Bosnia, in 1990.
It was shortly before the full Civil War broke out; when we were there only Kosovo in the south near Albania was messed up. At war.
The whole reason my family went was a pilgrimage to this place where the Virgin Mary was supposedly appearing much like Guadalupe or Lourdes. And I didn't believe it was happening; figured it was sensationalism but I went because at that time I was living in San Diego and had been living far from my family for 6 years. My mom offered to pay for my entire trip: food, lodging, and airfare. She paid for it all.
I never talk about what happened there. It's not like I saw Mary, nor did I talk to her. But I guess I can say, I believed it was real. It wasn't the children; who were teenagers by that time the phenomena had been occuring for a long time.
It was the Muslims and Romanji/the gypsies who gave me faith. Isn't that funny?
And yes there were Twilight Zone experiences but I'm smart enough not to focus on those signs and wonders because the real message, the real deal was to change your heart.
"Pray for Peace" was the central message of Medjugorje/Bosnia-Serbia-Croatia-Slovenia-Macedonia= the former Yugoslavia.
Ethnic cleansing started. the Muslims, the gypsies...they were killed, raped, tortured.
I couldn't watch any of it on TV.
My ex-husband, Mike, he had been offered a free ticket by my Mom too and he said that he believed without having to go see it. He believed that if he went with us he'd never come back.
Maybe I was afriad I would go to Yugoslavia and never return. Though I do have a girlfriend, Jennifer, who did report as a freelance journalist and she came back. And she has a high tech job now.
Perfect for this weekend as I contemplate what the true meaning of my personal jesus is. My personal mary & jesus/religion. That the meaning of my life is. And that is to be the change that I want to see in the world.
I don't know what can be done for peace in that part of the world. It's been a hotspot since world war i. since the austro-hungarian empire.
I guess that turning away from the reporting, and blinding myself to the reality isn't going to help me figure it out. I hsould try to understand, try to stay aware of all the sadnesses there.
So I watch this film.
And I read the recent reports now of 2008.
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