Sie (beautltdwn) wrote, @ 2004-04-10 22:51:00

So as i sit here on a friday night by my lonesome, i started listening to some old nelly stuff. haha dont ask why. This seemed to spur some thoughts. What do i want from a relationshp right now? Am i getting through my family problems alright? Am i letting go of my past relationshps? Am i close enough with my mom? What would i do if my mom and kyle got married? What do i really think about lindsay's current condition? Is this new relationship just gonna end up with hurt? Am i going to be left worring about Jon constantly? Should i have to do that? there's so many questions in my mind that i decided to answer them on here so it makes more sense. ok here we go:

What do i want from a relationshp right now?
I know that i want what is happening with Jon. I just have to stop doubting him and realize what he is like.

Am i getting though my family problems alright?
I think that im getting along as well as anyone in my position can be. But that doesnt mean it isnt hard sometimes.

Am i letting go of my past relationships?
Everyday it gets further and further from my mind. Especially now with Jon in the picture, im finally happy.

Am i close enough with my mom?
For awhile, we were fighting more than usually, but ever since this new job, she's been MUCH happier and so we've gotten along better. Not to mention that shes out of the house alot, so that makes me happy cuz i have my space.

What would i do if my mom and kyle got married?
Haha probabally freak out, then complain, then freak out some more. ew i dont even want to think about that.

What do i think of Lindsay's current condition?
I think that she is nieve and has no idea what she is getting herself into. She hasnt hit rock bottom yet, though, so she doesnt realize that yet.

Is this new relationshp going to end up in hurt?
Ok, i gotta face the facts, most do. But im not going to stop living just because it might end in hurt. I really like Jon, and like i said before, i just need to get adjusted to how he is, because my previous boyfriends didnt behave the way he does.

Am i going to be left worring about Jon constantly?
Well, the mothering instinct in me always worries about the ones i care about. But once i get adjusted to this new way of life im sure ill be less worried.

Should i have to do that?
Yes, and no. But it doesnt really matter either way, because i will worry some anyways.



There. That wasnt hard. I feel much better now. And dont get me wrong, im not trying to complain about my life...i just needed to get those sorted out in my mind.

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