"I'm a loser and a user so I don't need no accuser" [24 Oct 2004|03:13am]
I'm tired and soon to sleep. I just felt bad. I haven't posted most of the week. Apologies. I've been supa busy. Any point when I wasn't busy, I was worrying about rushed and hurtful thoughts. Hmm... At one point, I'll admit, I was ready to just give. I was just tired of everyone fighting me, tired of everything. I'll admit it, when it comes down to it, I'm a wimp. Giving up just seems so much easier most of the time. I can't really explain it, but I admit it. I'm fragile...and it sucks. However, if I were otherwise, it would probably change me and then I'd completly hate myself. Though, if I were able to be different in that area and be okay with it and not freak out about stuff...that would rock. I still want to be understood. Understand me. I'm my biggest critic. When the world is silent about me, I just assume the worst. I'm tired. I'll try to post again tomorrow.