My first entry
So I'm 22, trying to graduate from college cuz i only have 12 credits left after this semester but doesn't look like things are going my way cuz for some odd reason i suck at school. maryland is too big. i dont know what it is but i really dont like it. i need a small personal school. and none of the majors appeal to me. it sucks. im not sure what to do. I need to come up with a plan so i figured the best way to start figureing out what i want to do is, learn who i am. so how do i learn who i am. by writing and learning what i think and applying it to self improvement. thats what i want. self improvement. most people in my position would probably think, self destruction, drugs, sex, going out too much, running away with random losers, etc. me, i know im better then that. ive got to take my frustration and apply it to doing good.
so everyone is like, u need a plan. what do u want to do wiht your future. i dunno? i have no idea. im sort of just waiting for something to fall into my lap and i like it like this. but what if im sitting here waiting and everyone else is moving forward, getting into the real world and making money while im still here. and the funny part is im fully capable of making it big, more capable then most people out there! ive got the brains and the social skills and some would say the looks help too. but why on earth would i want to sit behind a desk all day and waste my life away. i know its not for me. thats why im trying to figure out what i really want to do. at the same time i want to be in love and have kids asap. my mom did! really young! i feel like i want to do that too. but things are different now days . its like no one wants to get married til their almost 30 and thats just way too far away. i cant wait that long! dont get me wrong, id never just marry to marry, but i definitely want to marry asap! not just anyone. someone, and ill know who that someone is when i meet him.