|Current mood:|| relaxed|
|Current music:||"Ordinary People"-John Legend|
Hey wassup! It's been awhile since I last updated this lol. A LOT's been goin on lately tho. For one, college is kickin me in the fuckin ass! Midterms are over and by the looks of it, I'm gonna have 4 F's and 1 B. YEAH. Most of it's because I hardly go to some of my classes..but I think it's because I'm just not that motivated to be at Shepherd. I don't even have a major. I really wanna transfer, and my parents want me to, too..but the only problem is that I get VERY homesick, I'll miss my close friends, and I won't be able to pay for my car...So it's hard to tell if I'll even be in college next year!
...My "luv" life is fucked up right now lol..I started talkin to this guy about a month ago and things happened..and he told me he really wants to be with me. Things were goin GREAT. He'd call me late at nite jus cuz he was thinkin about me. At the time, I felt the same way about him..but then shit started and he got mad at me for some things. We didn't talk that much for about a week and then he calls me and tells me he can't stop thinkin about me n he wants to be with me now. I mean, that's great and I really like him too..But for some reason my feelings have changed. It's not that I don't wanna be with him..it's just that if he wants a COMMITTED relationship, he doesn't deserve me cuz i'll be honest, I've done ALOT of things behind his back. So, I dunno what I'm gonna do..because like someone was tellin me the other day, I don't think I'm destined for anyone or a relationship..and they're right. I do alot of wild things and he wouldn't think the best of me if I told him...
TODAY: I didn't do awhole lot. I laid around doin school work since I didn't have class oR work. Around 3 I went over Sarah's and saw her baby. Awww that baby is soo adorable, and he knows it too:-) lol I was there til about 4:30 then came home, took a shower, and here I am.
Tomorrow I have class and work so I prolly won't update til tomorrow night...*MuAhS*