|Current mood:|| cynical|
|Current music:||Cauterize - Killing Me|
Another day gone by And still no reason why...
Another week down. The Story of the year show last nigth was good. They had so much energy which made it cool. The 1st two bands didn't impress me to much. Hazen St. was good, I think I liked them mostly cause I miss H2O so much. But I liked that thier music was upbeat and the lyrics were about being true to who you are. I was one of the few people at the show who liked them, but oh well. Today sucked though. I've been pretty down since friday i guess. Just jumping on myself for shit that I've lost control of or never had control of. I'm so scared of being forced to grow up I think. It's like I never got to be much of a kid because of my mom always placing all her money worries and family problems on to me including alot of the blame for it and now I have to go out and survive all on my own and I just see that as meaning I'll never be able to afford to have fun anymore. I've been totally slacking on everything that has to do with planning for after graduation. I have no job ideas, no housing ideas, no money ideas. I don't know I'm just extremely stressed. I have really closed myself in lately too, not telling people how I'm feeling in fear that I'll open up to much. I've also started to just hate everything. I'm more bitter then ever. Even the guy I like, I hate because he doesn't care. The only people who don't piss me off here are Blue and Ryan. Well, I def have a test tomorrow and I haven't even studied yet. So it's time to do that. Bye, i just can't wait for thurs, Mest will make things better, at least for the day.