|Current mood:|| crushed|
|Current music:||I will Survive - Gloria Gaynor|
Oh now go, Just turn around now your not welcome anymore..
Today is the day Chris and I have been together for three months. Or are we still together? I really don't know. I'll tell you all what happened.
Since mostly just my friends read this, I'm sure you all know that those Richmond thugs want him and Brad bashed because of Fiona and her friends.
Well, Thursday night Chris calls me (he calls me everynight at 9:30 except fridays) anyways, we talk for awhile. After about 10 minutes of talking his phone cut out, and he didn't end of calling me back until half an hour later. The reason is because he got chased and he was scared to death. But he got hom safely, and then we said goodbye so he could get something to eat and go to bed.
He also promised to call me on Saturday night, like he always does to let me know he was still comming over on Sunday (we see each other every Sunday).
Friday night comes, and he doesn't call me which is fine because have an agreement that we have a break friday night. However, Alyce calls me and tells me that FIONA smsed her out of the blue telling her she's sorry for everything. Alyce gave Fiona Chris's number so she could apologise to him too.
Now, Comes Saturday night I'm waiting patiently for Chris to call me like he is supposed to. But nothing happens. I go to ring him to find out that his is phone off. Now his phone is NEVER off, and he knows he has to call me on Saturdays to let me know that he is still comming over.
So I try calling him all night, and his phone is still off. Same with all Sunday he phone was off and I was panicking.
I wanted to wait and see if he would call me, but my Dad and Alyce kept insisiting that I call his home phone and talk to his Mum.
Finally, I couldn't take it anymore and I told Dad to talk to his Mum as I was too scared to talk to her incase there was bad news, I was so convinced he had gotton bashed or something.
So he calls his Mum, And I got in the shower. I don't know why, I just felt better in there. Then when I got out Dad told me Chris went away Saturday night, and left his phone at home. He told his Mum to call me and let me know he couldn't see me on Sunday. But she couldn't find my number anywhere.
So, that was that. I felt alot better after that.
But then I woke up today, the day of our three months. I realised that I haven't spoken to Chris since Thursday. It's the longest that I've gone without talking to him.
Another thing I relised is that Chris put his mates over me. Maybe I'm selfish for thinking like this, but hey..It just kinda hurt because I think that given the choice he'd rather hang out with his mates then me.
One more thing. What if he doesn't want to be with me anymore? You know..*Sighs again*
Hopefully he'll call me tonight and we can sort this out. I have decided though, I've had enough of playing a faithful little puppy. He has started to take me for granted on alot of other things and I won't put up with it. I love him, yes. But I love myself too and I don't want to be treated badly.
If he doesn't call me, too bad. I'm not going to grovel. But I miss him so much, my heart hurts.....
A different subject - Alyce wants to get back with Brendan. We've come up with a little sceme to get them back together, HAHA. Childish, I know, But it's fun.