| Current mood: | bored;slightly pissed;devious |
| Current music: | `All You Wanted` - Michelle Branch |
*closes the door to her room to get some privacy as she moved over to the laptop and logged into Blurty with a soft smile on her features. So much has happened in the past few days ... some good some ... not so good. And she needed to try for a little release in the updatey sense. She cracked her knuckles a bit and grazed her fingers over the keys lightly*
So things aren't as boring as they were the last time I updated in this thing. Weird how things change so quickly and makes life way different. I bet only a few people know what I'm talking about? .. Maybe? Okay so since I'm due for one of those real lengthy, maybe sort of deep, explainy updates I figure this could be it. Sort of. And I've probably lost anyone actually reading this. Yay me! :D
I'll start with the smaller news. Start off small and get to the bigger news or something. I got a job. Actually I think I might have two jobs? I don't know. But neither of them have to do with me flipping burgers or going to high school and being a guidance counselor. I'm working for one of those coffee shop places now. Y'know the ones sort of like the Espresso Pump? But not really Starbucksy. I figure the caffiene fiends most of us are, that it'd be kind of cool to work in a coffee shop and be able to steal get free stuff, of course that ... my boss doesn't know about but still! And also since I haven't seen hardly any of you lately; unless your names are Spike, Faith, Andrew, Buffy Bot, and you get the picture, that since like I said just about everyone in this house needs a daily java-fix that maybe I'll actually SEE some of you once in a while. >:o.
*she sucked in a breath slowly, somewhat nerved by the hostility that was still in the air between the people living in ... her? house. it pissed her off that everyone just got so .. detached after the damned apocalypse when almost everyone here has experienced more than one apocalypse and what made this one any different other than the loss of loved ones and it being against the ultimate evil*
And .. before I get hostile I'll move on now right? Okay. Spike and I talked a few nights ago, a lot actually. We found time to be unavoidy and try to sort out where the hell we go from here. After much ... talking, we kind of figured why don't we just try. Try and have some kind of a real `relationship`. Which before any of you sit and tell me that this is a bad idea, I've got something to say ... `Fuck you`. We talked about this first. Do any ONE of you actually remember what I was like BEFORE he was back? I was different, way different. Almost as if he took something from me when he left. Also, as Dawn once said to me (not about this subject particularly, but in general) ... this is my private life. What I choose to do with my life is none of your businesses. You all may be my friends and family but you are not me. And NONE of you are ruling me by telling me that this isn't a good thing. I've stuck by all of you, in your decisions and never downed your decisions of who you happen to fall for and be involved with. So DON'T do it to me. Thanks. Oh, and this isn't directed toward anyone exactly - it's just me mouthing off about how this is my life and none of you can tell me what to do. I'm not a little girl anymore. Not .. that I really listened to anyone who's ever told me what to do in the first place .. but still. But, back to my point. I want this. To try this relationship stuff with him. I know my .. history with guys is kind of stellar, that I haven't exactly had any real luck in the boyfriend-department but I don't really care. I actually thought that I'm being selfish and unfair to him. He has a new chance at life. He's human now. He could anything he wanted now, he could leave and go do other things but he stays here. With me. *shrugs her shoulders a bit while shifting on her bed onto her side, moving the laptop at an angle* .. and I think I won't continue with that before I ramble on anymore about it. ;/
Connor, Angel's son is here now. He seems like a good kid, I guess. I haven't exactly talked to him but Will met him when she went to LA and brought Faith back with her. That and Faith kinda likes him, I guess. She said he could stay here, and I guess that's alright too I mean we do have a few extra rooms anyway and it's good to get 'em used? Also the more people we have fighting the forces of evil, the better. The only drawback was that Angel kind of followed him here or something. And can I just say .. damn you Angel. Damn you for your timing. You come here and make with the shadowy lurking and such and it's CONVENIENT that you happen to surface after I'm finally getting some sort of a normal life and getting everything situated while also finally moving past the confusing stage of where I am with Spike. But I'm not going to say anything else here to you since I think we need to talk anyway ... later.
Last night I went on patrol, I didn't bring anyone with me I had wanted to get in a little slayage on my own. I'm kind of wishing I hadn't of gone on my own since, seeing as the part of town I was in being the skanky part of town I had to dress the part since I was on a little ... recon trying to track some kind of demon shapeshifter type guy in a few of the places down there and got one too many looks that kind of made me a little uneasy but .. eh. This one vamp got the better of me and threw me into a headstone, hitting my back. I swear I woke up this morning still feeling `the burn`. *grumbles under her breath for a moment and then remembers the irky dream she had the night before and decided to mention it* I also had this .. really weird dream. I don't know if it was prophetic or anything like my normal Slayer dreams or .. just because I've watched one too many horror movies lately. But it was weird. There were these .. posessed kangaroo looking demons, I can't remember their names but they had these like seriously wicked looking talons. Definetly not too up on the hygein, they were .. pretty much unkillable - not by swords or stakes, the could only be killed by something made `before steel` or whatever. There were also some .. Glory-like elements to it that Dawn was captured and this group of seriously whacked out vamps, one of 'em kinda strong with the mojo wanting to `bleed the Key onto the seal and open it` to cause like .. hell on earth or something. Everyone was .. pretty much not killed or .. almost everyone. *bites down on her lower lip for a moment sucking some air in slowly as a few tears stung at her eyes and she quickly wiped them away .. not wanting to cry, to worry over this .. probably insignificant dream also not wanting to go into details over how he died in her dream, but obviously pretty disturbed by it still* I woke up, seriously wigged out and I did what any girl would probably do. I quietly went and tiptoed into Spike's room and crawled into his bed (not in the sexual way, thanks >:o), awaking him and had him hold me which is where I later fell alseep at, in his arms. *clears her throat a bit and shifted again on the bed not really wanting or knowing how to go further and let out a small sigh before running her tongue along her lower lip for a moment and cracked her neck lightly* ... That was probably more information and any of you need but yeah, I had a bad dream everyone and I probably should talk to Giles about it, see if he can Mulder out what my dream could have been about maybe and if it was a prophetic Slayer dream. And now ... I'm going to see if anyone either wants to .. hang, or go on patrol with me because I am bored like something fierce right now. Which reminds me, I have to go grocery shopping later ... anyone want anything in particular? If you don't tell me now then you're shit out of luck :o
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