|Current music:||Skindred//World Domination|
I can't believe how oblivious I was a year ago. How could I say such horrible things about my family? It tears me apart, the way I treated my mother. We have always been close but a year ago I was such a horrible person that I didn't see how I was hurting her. Now that I do everything is different. I've stopped drinking, swearing, and treating everyone around me badly. I'm a different person, in some ways. I've just become more kind and not so careless about what I do to my body. I still have that dirty mind but that will never go away. I've been told I get it from my mother (which is a little nasty but undeniable). I'm glad I remembered this journal. I made the entries that I badmouthed my family private because I'm embarrassed to admit that I actually wrote them.
I'm so glad my mom decided to forgive me.