What to do...
I think I need to get out of town for a bit. Maybe for a month I'll go to Florida. I can make some money down there, and after I get back to town, I can go back to school. I am going by the school tomorrow to discuss my options for the upcoming fall semester. I don't know what I can do or what I want to do for that matter. Maybe a councelor will help me figure this out. I feel like I need to go away for the time before school. I need to be on my own for a bit. I need to stop depending on my mom so much. The only thing is that she has no ride back and forth to work. Her car is fucked up and it will cost more money than we have to fix it. I know it's all my decision and I have to do for myself, but I feel like it may not be the best time for her if I leave. Should I let that affect my decision to leave? I need to leave for me. I need to go so I want have my mommy and daddy to run to for help. Just kick my own ass out of town for a while and see what happens. I'll drive my car there, but I don't know where I'm going to stay. I need to discuss this with the other party involved. If I stay here much longer without experiencing the world on my ownwith out someone there who is responsible for me, I'll just get worse. My mind can't handle this atmosphere and situation much longer or I'll need some kind of medication. I've lived away from home before but I could always get money from my dad when I needed it. I could get food and what ever else I needed to survive. My parents were still taking care of me. I did have a job for a bit, but got fired because I was sick the one day I was on the scheduel. I have a feeling in my stomach that tells me I need to go away for a while. I'm uncertain of myself though. I'm never really sure if I should trust that instinct or not no matter how strong it is. I should just go with it for once. See what happens. I hope it turns out well.