| Current music: | Crash Into Me - Dave Matthews Band |
God, I don't even know where to begin or if I even should. Everything going on around me is such a blur. It's like this incredibly fast Kamikoze that won't stop. There's the ups, there's the downs and there's the little stuck in betweens.
I stayed with Dan for awhile because I know both he and I needed each other. I know that he's had it rough, alone with the kids, but hopefully he knows that he can call me if he needs to. My house is a few streets down and I can be there in thirty seconds, no problem. Okay, well give or take a minute or two.
I don't know where else to begin with this other mystery of mine. Actually, it's not really a mystery, but I find myself baffled as to how it came about. The thing is, I don't want to figure it out because this is something that just.....is. I don't want to dissect it, I don't want to press myself so deep into finding out what it is because then I won't enjoy it.
I think through life we all make these...connections. Some a little stronger than others, some more gradual and some immediate. This would definitely be that strong, immediate one and not for the reasons that most would think. This friendship, this bond that we have has turned into something different than I was certainly looking for. It's almost as if I'm afraid to say anymore because I don't want to do this an injustice but at the same time, I'm almost bursting at the seams to put this to words. So, I'll just leave these as I crawl into bed...
...I'm the king of the castle
You're the dirty rascle
Crash into me
Oh see you crash into me baby,
'Cause I am swimming in your seas
And in your ocean
And I feel your waves come and crash into me
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