|Current mood:|| frustrated|
|Current music:||*Looking for Something More-Sara Evans*|
-*My Motto is:Contented with a little, Yet wishing for more*-
Thats not really my motto for life or anything . i received it in an email last night . it was from mountainwings.com . tied in with a sermon-like message . those emails are really interestin and i love gettin them . but ^points to subject^, it is so true of people these days . they are contented with what they can get, but thats not enough, they've got to have more, more, more, and more . there never satisfied with just enough . im guilty of that too, as any other human being . but i just dont understand why some people in the world, cant just thank you Lord for this, and be done with it, be glad that they've got what they've got . not, its not what i wanted, or its not enough, i want this or more of this . just be content with what u have, whether it be little or more or enough, and dont wish for more, some people aren't even lucky enough to have even 1 little thing that you do have, no matter what that may be . so be happy, enjoy life, and remember: "our time on earth, is but a passing. Don't get attached too this life in this time, on this earth, because this is NOT our home; ETERNITY is our home."
well . enough of me "preaching my sermons" as some say to me, haha . im in a real predicament right now . im confused and i dont know what to do . ive never been in this situation before and definitely not like this . i dont know what to do, i really dont .ive never even had thoughts and such come in my head and out of my mouth like they have been here for the past week or so now . im torn between these two things right now . im not gonna say exactly waht it is on here, because i dont know who reads this, and may be some who know me, and would tell others . i dont want no one but me and God to know this . i just need prayer, and a lot of it too . im prayin about it also, because im afraid of makin the wrong decision . if i go one way, it could possibly ruin my life forever (and others too) and leave me regretting certain things, and have everything to lose and risk . if i go the other way, i might possibly have something to gain (lookin doubtful now), and it could turn out to be somethin that im wrong about now . i have strong feelings on both of these things, but i dont know what to do . its a scary thing right now for me, i never thought i would ever be in this situation, ever, certainly not now . i mean geez, ive already got so much piled on me right now, i dont need this!!!!!! if only i had someone to talk to (who wouldnt let it out to anyone at all), that would be so nice and help me some, maybe on makin the best AND right decision . i could talk to tim, but no, i dont want to, etc . or i could to valerie, but we're both so busy here lately with school and work, i dont know if we'd have enough time to actually talk about it or not . i could go to miranda, like i usually do with related problems, but she's sick right now, and i dont wanna bother her, plus shes got a few problems of her own .
i guess I'll go and talk to God about it and pray ceasingly, and wait till i have peace about it and find the answer .
well . thats enough for now . i need to go and wash my car, since its pretty out today, then gotta get ready and go to tims this evenin . ill update soemtime again later, maybe