| Current mood: |  crappy |
I guess you can say that my friendships have gone down the drain. One happens to be with Jesse. He says I strung him along but the whole thing behind it was I didn't exactly know my feelings at that moment when he told me. I didn't want to lose him as a friend and I did just that because I didn't want to hurt him but I didn't want to lose him as a friend. I realize I can't go in the past but I never meant to hurt him and if I did I am sorry and of course I know I didn't play with his feelings and I appreciated he told me the truth but there just wasn't anything there.
Colin hasn't been around lately or if he has, his damn away message is up. Maybe this whole wanting a relationship isn't going to work out. I want friends first and already I screwed that up. I just didn't want a big drama situation and I got it. I know I haven't been the greatest friend especially to Maj. I just have been doing a lot of thinking and worring about myself which I normally never do. I've noticed I've changed and maybe it isn't for the best.
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