|Current mood:|| gloomy|
Im losing another fucking father in my life. He is fucking breaking my world apart every word he speaks, I am dying. I LOVED HIM LIKE MY OWN FATHER, and neone that knows me, knows I don't give that privelege to ANYONE...... To top it all off I was on the verge of depression, and now I am thrown way in its bottomless pits. I hate myself, what did I do to deserve this. Drop everythingI ever knew in Florida, to come up here for a year and get stranded....... maybe I will go back. If he leaves there is nothing left. At this point death sounds real nice, better than having to heal for another four fucking years.