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"Don't let me down."
I'm so tired. Work is great, but awful for motivating me to write.
I'm currently working at Friends Camp as an Assistant Counselor. Well, for the first two weeks, I was a CIT. They (the powers that be in the Friends offices) only got three kids signed up for the Microworlds group and couldn't afford to pay me. I love my campers and my counselor friends, but the work is mentally exhausting.
I've been falling asleep every night around nine or ten o'clock. o.O;
I actually fell asleep (well, kinda) while watching Sumner work on Microworlds one morning.
I'm not going to write about the past two weeks (ha!!), but my campers were awesome.
I get to see all my old friends, too. Scott ("Ophelia"), David, Leah... and some new ones, like Brian and Ryan... and then there's Murray.
Murray's been giving me rides home almost every day (in his spiffy ghetto red Buick Reatta). Sometimes, he comes in my house and we play DDR. One day, I let Missy out to meet him, and he said she had the attention span of a goldfish. I told Murray that Missy has epilepsy. >XD
A few days ago, he told me during our break that when he went off to college (Tulane in New Orleans), he wasn't planning on coming back (although, I'm sure he'll still visit family or whatever every so often) to Maryland. I told him I'd miss him, and he said he'd miss me too, and he'd miss other people and things, but that he wouldn't miss Friends School or the area. He said he felt a need to start over somewhere else. I can understand the feeling, because, to be honest, I'm not sure if I want to live around here when I grow up (well, I have no idea about anything when I grow up). However, it still made me sad because the reality hit me; one of my good friends will live in another state. It's rather depressing.
The weeks have gone by rather quickly, but I remember some other key things.
I went over to Sam Smith's house and hung out there with Sam, Elizabeth B., Fern (from David's party), Sean (from David's party), Maya (I don't know her last name, but not the one from CVE and THS), and Steven (from David's party). Sam did DDR (well, Stepmania, on his computer but with the pad) in a skirt and Fern did the milkshake song on Stepmania. >XD
Leah and I saw Saved! at the Owings Mills theatre. It was great. Then, while Mom was away for six days in the Midwest, Dad and I saw The Stepford Wives, which was hilarious.
The people at St. Joe's tried telling me if I couldn't get my weight up to 120 pounds by the end of July, I wouldn't be allowed to go to Ligonier Camp. I complained to Dad about it, and he said that they (the ED center people) don't have the power to prohibit me from going to camp, unless I were to be hospitalized, and I know that's not possible (I'd have to lose like thirty pounds in two weeks or something like that).
So ha!! Fuck you, ED center people!!
Yes, I really have grown to hate that place.
On Wednesday (I think it was Wednesday, anyway), I saw Matt. ^^ I hadn't seen him since May, so I was happy about that. We hung out with some of his friends around the Commons and Sunny's Surplus and Burger King (haha to the last two). Most of his friends seemed pretty cool, especially Joey, who happens to go to THS. He recognized me (he said he had seen me around school and recognized the pins on my bag, but I can't remember seeing him around school... oh well). It was a fun way to spend a Wednesday night.
Yesterday was the suckiest Fourth of July ever. It was a rainy Sunday, we didn't have our annual party type thing, we went over to a relative's house, there were lots of my relatives but also a lot of strange people at the house, Emma wasn't there because she's in Williamsburg for some summer class thing, and I didn't get to see the fireworks this year. *sigh* Oh, well.
Today, I saw Spider-man 2 with my parents. The movie that I've been looking forward to for two years now... does it live up to my expectations? Not only does it live up to them, it surpasses them!! I can't wait for Spider-man 3!! ^__^
After the movie, Mom, Dad, and I had another squabble. We've been having a lot of them lately, but it probably started around the time they started taking me to the ED center. But it's not just squabbles about eating, it's about everything now, and my parents have been so irritating lately. I wonder if I'm finally turning into a normal teenager... yeah, right. I'll never be any sort of normal.
Mom and Dad always gang up on me in these sorts of fights, and make me feel as if everything's my fault. It's been like that since I was a little kid. No wonder I'm so screwed up.
This is pretty bad, but I've been thinking (and I know this isn't true but that doesn't stop me from having the thought dance and flit around in my head) that marriage is like a union... for people to become strong and win arguments against others and feel better about themselves while making others feel bad... if that makes any sense?
Crap, I'm using too many "..."s again (I'm so off topic). I can't even remember what they're called. Epilepses? Erg, I know that word is so wrong, but I can't think of the word at the moment. Le sigh.
The word I was looking for is "elipses". I'm using too many elipses again. Yes.
I can't really think of too much else to write.
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