|Current mood:|| depressed|
|Current music:||the cure-bloodflowers|
as i sit here. i finally realized that i don't know anything. i am such an outsider. even surrounded by all of my friends, i still feel lonely, deep down in my heart, knowing that i will probably never find anyone. maby i'm better off alone. i don't know. i can't seem to think straight, even my paintings have been sucky for the past week. they're just helpless paintings of nothing from my mind. no meaning, no life to them.