|Current mood:|| depressed|
I'm so lost without him..
Oh my.. I don't know what happened. Everything was perfect between me and Will, but something i dunno waht happened. Last night will came up, we were all up to the school then all of our friends were goin up to the camping site and he didn't wanna go, so i slowly walked away think he would catch up later but he didn't. I got so disapoointed in him, I dind't undertsnad why he didn't come up, I cried , I had to let it out. My when i came home the feeling of sadness was there.. then of course he was online. Thats where it all began.. well i should say ended. We just started fighting about that he dind't come up, then i told him to leave me alone..ya know until i cooled down..then he says fuck u, i'm sick of ua nd ur shit i think we should break up!! Iwas like what the fuck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! My stomach and heart felt like it was gonna explode or somethin, I started crying and crying. I didn't know wh he wanted this. He kept saying we don't get along, and he can't see a postive reason to stay together and that I got on his nerves when I used to call him a moron or to shut up. Gosh, I thoght he knew I was jokin. But still, if it got on his nerves he should of told me way before instead of breaking up with me and then telling me. I'm still dying with heartache, it hurts soo much... he said after he don't know what he wants right now... then i said well i think we could try and fix things, it woudln't hurt to try and he said he don't know, and he said he had to go and for me to call him tomorrow or somethin! Now.. I'm barely slept all night, I've been up since sawn cryng my eyes out. Plus, to make the worst of it I have a Biology exam tomorrow and I don't knowa thing yet, and I can't concentrate all i can do is cry and think about what he said.. I'm so lost.. I don't know what happened between us at all, and it hurts soo much. Ohh mmyy... :( I think i will go and try to study, and wait till later on to come when i calls him. Hopefully he would wanna trry again.. I mean we were perfect , well I thought we were anyway.. well i'm gone.. ttyl