|Current mood:|| contemplative|
i confess that i like the confession thread. it makes me realize that a lot of people have the same problems i do. sometimes i think i'm the only one that's hurting. when you're really down you feel like you're all alone. no one understands you. no one can help you. what's the point of living? depression gives such tunnel vision. in reality, things actually aren't that bad.
thinking about all this has made me feel kinda foolish. like i've wasted 7 years of my life being depressed without warrant. i still have my whole life to turn things around. i need to start living. in the past i've just gone along with the flow. but i know that i have control of my life. i can change things. it's just so fucking scary. to take control of yourself. i'm so rambly. sometimes it's easier to sit back and let life pass you by. when things go wrong, you blame it on depression. i don't know where i'm going with this. i'm hungry.