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dudeeeee no wonder i haven't been able to go on blurty, DC++, limewire and other stuff! my freakin firewall wasn't allowing them access to the internet. what a shitter. well its been awhile hasn't it! let me read back on my past entry and refer back to the present... ok i guess my whole entry last month was about my situation with stephen. well i can HAPPILY say that stephen and i are not going to work things out. as much as i wanted to, and i still do, he just isn't the person i want him to be, which is the person he was when we first started dating. he wasn't too happy about my decision and how i made him compromise his relationship with the other girl he was with, but i couldn't just be with him and end up getting hurt again. i realized he hadn't changed because when i moved to berkeley, he called me twice at 2am in the morning (on two different days) while i was sleeping because he wanted to come over... and the this other time he wanted to come over and i told him he can come over tomorrow, but the next day he never called or anything. i just feel like he only wants to spend time with me when it's convenient for him. i know we're both busy people, but i would never make him feel the way he makes me feel... it's just so hard for me because i'm in berkeley, the place i would frequent when i spent time with him the two years we were together... so i'm used to going to certain restaurants around here with him. i told him i don't want him to call me or talk to me anymore because i need move on - and that we can be friends in the future, but at the time, i just don't need him complicating my life! it sucks cuz i'm losing a best friend here... he doesn't realize how much i hoped that he had changed and how incredibly disappointed in him i was. well i guess now he can move on too and spend as much time with his baseball team and other endeavors without me wanting him to share his time. it's the best for the both of us. so my collegiate experience here at berkeley has been great :) i love the people i've met and i love my classes and my job! i've become really good friends with my room mate Alex and I've met a lot of people through her, mostly girls from her sorority! they wanted me to rush but I'm 21 and there pledge class is mostly 18 and 19 year olds lol, so i passed. i've met a few people from my classes... lol it's so funny cuz i have this one girl in my class and we always sit next to each other and we talk and after class we walk to the next building together (different classes though) and i don't even know her name lol! i figured it'd be awkward to ask her what her name was... so it went on like that for a couple weeks until she introduced herself before asking a question in lecture lol. i thought that was funny. but anywhooooooooooooooooo. the parties here > santa cruz parties lol. seriously! my jobs been going good. i haven't gotten paid and i've been almost working a month :( that's because i get paid monthly and when i began work in august, the timesheet for that month had already been due. so come october 1st, i should be getting a fat ass check :) but yeah, they're renovating our office in the next three weeks so i'm gonna be getting my own little cubicle + a brand new desktop! muffin and moose have been doing good. i've taught them so many tricks in the past month. they have to go through a series of tricks in order to get a treat so i call it there little dance :) lol first they do a circle, then sit, then shake right hand, then left hand, then lay down, then roll over then they get there treat! lol now i'm working on having them beg which is hard to do especially for fat ass moose! before stephen and i decided not to work things out, we wanted to get a teacup chihuahua and were talking about it... but i guess that's not happening with him anymore. i still hella want one though! my room mate alex has a teacup chihuahua and she has a yorkie, but her mom has other dogs too. she's an IB major, going pre-vet! how fun is that. anyways. so maybe in the future i'll look into getting moose and muffin another sibling! so i have the iPhone, which i absolutely love, and i got it like a couple weeks before the price went 200 dollars lower! but good thing i kept my receipt! i'm going to sf this weekend so i'm gonna get a rebate on it. well i'm gonna watch big brother and study. i'll update soon! Post a comment in response: |
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