| Current mood: |  quixotic |
| Current music: | The Grinch on TV |
I was worried that when I told Matt about Billy and I he would be so upset he wouldn't forgive me. That we would never have another chance together and that he would never look at me the same. Thank God that didn't happen because then I would be sitting here right now writing a sad and depressed entry.
Matt and I are back together, for good, this time. I don't know why I ever tried to break things off between us, but I did, and it was stupid. And it's not happening ever again. I deserve to be stoned (not with weed..NICK) and thrown into a river for trying to break up with Matt. So if I do it again, you all have my permission to throw giant rocks at me. Yay!
sap I feel so blessed to be in love. Honestly, I don't believe I deserve this or Matt, but I thank God for both. Matt is the best thing that has ever happened to me. Even as a friend, he was so great to me, and now it's about a million times better. I never believed in falling in love, especially not with my best friend, and this is a smack in the face. It's like I have to wake up and realize that I'm not 16 anymore. I can't be goofing off all of the time. It's just...I feel so...changed. For the better. Like, I'm something so small in this world but I can feel so great, so amazing, when I'm with him. /sap
Ahh, okay, that sucked, but now I feel less...stupid. Anyways, the Grinch is on and I want to watch it. Oh yeah. (I love people with penis-nubbed noses!)
Jerejere
