|Current mood:|| sad|
|Current music:||teacher - george michael|
just when things are going so right
i was fucked up outta my mind last night when i hear that.. ugh.. kevin tried to kill himself. i feel stupid and ignorant and i'll probably never see him again because he's home now, and i'll never get to tell him everything i've ever wanted to say to him. i love the way he laughs, smiles, jokes, removes himself from stupid parties with me, drunk phone calls on new year's telling me there's something about me. i should've known something was up.. his favorite movie is rules of attraction. i miss him. i wish i didn't ignore him this past month because i was mad at him. i wish at that party i moped at, i would've smiled for him because i think he needed that. i wish i hadnt met "my soulmate" for that one day and purposely try to make kev jealous. im staring at that picture of us just thinking.. two years of on and off nonsense and now he's really gone.
well i guess we're all really fucked up now aren't we.
teacher.. there are things that i dont want to learn..