|Current mood:|| uncomfortable|
|Current music:||Sugarcult: It's Over|
Guys can be difficult sometimes
Today i'm supposed to go get some cheesesteak with Vince. I feel weird though. After we broke up we told eachother we'd be cool friends, but sometimes i don't feel like hanging out with him. Except i feel bad because i told him i would, so i am, but i told him to wait until my sister's came home so we could get some food for them too. I guess the reason why i dont want to hang out with him as much anymore is because i feel weird and uncomfortable around him especially when i get a sense that he might be trying to find a way to get back with me. It's that thought that makes me feel weird because i know that i don't want to get back with him. I don't have any bf/gf feelings for him anymore, at all. I know that sometimes when he calls me to hang out i'm a little cold with him. I try to keep conversions short and i always go "ehh...nah" or "umm...its ok" everytime he asks me to hang with him. Honestly i just get irritated sometimes when my phone rings and its him cuz i know that he wants to hang out. I dont know if i'm being paranoid about it or not but i do try to look at things like "ohh...he's just trying to keep the friendship going by wanting to hang out" but then i get really weirded out becuz when we do hang out he looks at me weird. Like when we were at my house watching the Punisher, we were sitting on opposite couches and i felt weird and turned to look and we was starring at me.....ewww......ewww is exactly how i felt. Also when he tries to be extra nice to me or tries to do things that i wanted to do when we were together but he wouldnt to do like go to the beach or go clubbing. Stuff like that. I don't like it. I just told him no to the clubbing and beach thing with him, i said i didnt like clubbing anymore and that i didnt feel like going to the beach. I dont want to go with him is more exact. Too weird, too uncomfortable. I hope he meets somebody soon, if not I hope I do.
Well, for now I'm just gonna try to keep myself occupied. I'm gonna cut my hair today, and i gotta go buy a little vacuum for Sophie (my beautiful sweet car). Alrighty i'll let you know later how cheesesteak went....later