|Current mood:|| hungry|
|Current music:||t.a.t.u. - "Clowns"|
I know you did. I miss me too sometimes.
I'm so glad to finally be home. My cluttered, incredibly random room is such a beautiful site. My frozen, Windows 95 computer for me, and only me. And of course, I am so much closer to John than I was when I was in PA. I've seen him every day so far since I've gotten home.
He picked me and my sister up at the airport on Sunday. Forgot where in the parking garage he parked. He didn't even know what floor he'd parked on. Silly boy.
Monday he picked me up around 11 or 11:30 am, and we went out for lunch at Saikyo. Sushi. Mmmm.. It was so good. Burnt my tongue on miso soup. Had hot green tea to drink. Cucumber roll, tuna roll, California roll, Rocking Roll, and two French rolls (we ordered one to go). The rocking roll had smoked eel, or some kind of eel. It was pretty good. My favorite is still the french roll. Cream cheese, avacado, I dunno what else, wrapped in rice and crepe. It melts all over your mouth.
Another roll I really like is the Australian roll at Yae sushi, salmon, cream cheese, avacado, with kiwi on top. Good stuff. I love sushi..
I've been downloading music like a maniac. No problem there though..
After sushi, we decided to go to his house, even though his mom didn't want us there when she wasn't. God it was nice. I love being alone with him. Lately I've been apprehensive about kissing him in public, I'm not sure why, I used to make out with him right at school.
It was nice feeling him touch me again. I was sensitive to every movement, even his breath between my legs kept me turned on. We went from the bed, to some couch cushions on the floor where we ate our French roll, and then he was back between my legs. I want him... We still haven't had sex. I know I couldn't. I'd get so crazy worrying about whether or not I was pregnant, even if I used 50 contraceptives. I was thinking about anal, but I don't know if I could do that. I think it would hurt like a bitch.
Last night John and I went to Ross and I got some shoes. (Went to Payless to return shoes that I wasn't crazy about and, I think, payed too much for.) Then we drove to Blockbuster, didn't find anything. And then we went to McDonald's. He made a good burger. I dunno why it was so good, he doesn't know why it was so good, it was just so good. =P I sound so retarded.
I went to the beach today for the first time in two months. I think I got burned, but, I don't care. It was so nice to walk on the skillet they call sand, and walk in the ice cold water. I love laying there, soaking up the sun, sweating to death, trying to pretend I'm cute and petite in my pink bikini. I wish John could've come with us though. I love going to the beach with him.
I can't wait until we move to Jacksonville together. We'll be able to go whenever we have the time and the urge. I'd like to have sex on the beach some day. I also want to get married on the beach, but marriage isn't a priority for me. I'm more worried about just having a partner, actually, just having John. I don't think marriage is neccessary to show someone you really love them and want to be with them forever. The best way to show that is to do it. Doesn't it take more commitment to do that without getting married anyway? If you're married you can't be with anyone else, if you're not married and you're not with anyone else, then you just don't want to be with anyone else. I'd rather know that my partner didn't want anyone else, rather than couldn't have anyone else.
Anyway.. I'm just blabbering. I'm trying though, to keep this journal updated. I always slack off.
I think it's just that I have so many journals, I only use this one for things that I don't want other people to read. Most of what I wrote in this entry wasn't really private though.
Okay, I'm done. =P Goooodbye.