|Current mood:|| melancholy|
just close your eyes tight... and make-believe
I really wish I could just start over. then i wouldnt have to deal with anything, but i guess if i always wish i could start over then i'm never going to get anywhere. we all get problems and we all have to deal with them. i have to learn that there's no easy way out. i can't hurt someone else in order to save myself. but i can just do whats best for me. and if it does hurt someone on the way then im sorry. but i can't have things right for everyone. no one could do that.
I just feel so fucking empty. like there's nothing i want to try for anymore. no more dreams, no more hopes or wishes. everytime i see a pattern in time i used to have something to wish for. now there's nothing. maybe just to be happy. with anything. i wish someone could just take me away. show me a good time and help me forget pain and loneliness.
but that's not going to happen.