|Current mood:|| contemplative|
|Current music:||Live Bodeans CD from Jeff|
Another day in Paradise...
I've decided to try and be more positive about everything. I was so negative and got myself in such a funk last week that I think I literally made myself sick. The one phrase that keeps running through my head is :This is the first day of the rest of your life." It is! And no matter how bad the money problems seem right now, or how much I hate my job, or how weird my relationship with Matty is, it's all going to work out. I should just relax and enjoy the ride, and I know that everything I encounter makes me a stronger, better person.
James is constantly pointing out to me that I am extremely hard on myself. I tear myself down a lot and pick on my shortcomings. But you know what, in the whole scheme of things, what difference does it make if I am not the prettiest, skinniest, most talented and successful person I know? Instead I want to try to focus on just being the best all around person I can be. And I want to concentrate on loving myself more. On shutting out the inner judge. And letting myself be however I want to be without passing immediate judgment on myself CONSTANTLY.
Yay for being positive. Don't let everyone around you make you negative too.